I really enjoy being alone 90% of the time, but sometimes I do miss having a significant other. I just want someone I can be myself around all of the time, which is a combination of finding the right person and also allowing myself to be me. Its a delicate balance that I have definitely not perfected, but Im working on it.
Being single I have tried to make it my mission to become the kind of person that is socially acceptable. This is not easy, what with all of my cursing and farting and racial slurs. I kid, mostly. But it ain't all pretty, you know? I have work to do, and Im on it, because I figure my next relationship... I don't know, it would just be nice if it actually lasted. Crazy talk! Real talk. I don't want to feel the same old "Well, he's nice, but I cant wait for him to go home/go to work/go out of town so I can let myself relax." That is no way to live, and clearly does not work. I want someone around that I actually don't get tired of. Apparently, this is a tall order.